How are we doing friendships now? I don’t know who to reach out to. I don’t know who wants to be left alone, who is overwhelmed, who is lonely.

I have a long history of being a bad friend. I love being by myself. I crave deep connection. I am terrified of deep connection.

I am drawn to the troubled, the broken.

The troubled and broken are not healed by my friendship, which leaves me feeling troubled and broken.

I grow cold, distant.

I love deeply, without ever letting anyone know. I love selfishly.

This is just to say…

This is just to say that we have to keep trying. We have to reach out. We have to face rejection. We have to apologize and try again.